To Talk or Not to Talk?

One of my "issues" is that I open my mouth and verbage comes out before my brain engages. I am in the process of learning to keep my mouth shut until I can process what I am so desperately wanting speak.
Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. I am finding that I am a super control freak who thinks she has to be right in the middle of everything. I don't believe this is a pride thing as much as it is a trust thing. Sure, I am prideful, God shows me that alot, but I think the trust issue really wrecks havoc on me as I try to let go of things.
Our mission has given us about 6 weeks to get settled back into our home after having been stateside for 9 months and I am going crazy already wanting to jump right back into the fire. Here it is Monday morning, we just arrived Friday afternoon and I am chomping at the bit to get back to work. What is up with that?
Back to my difficulties yesterday; Satan was really working on me with negative self talk. He had a hook in me that just wouldn't let up. His hook negatively affected me and everyone in the house as they all knew that I was struggling with beating myself up. I must make my husband crazy sometimes with all of this. I went to bed last night praying that God would take this negative self talk away. I have tried to do it and I just can't. I am so weak when Satan starts with his garbage that I just fall right in to believing the lies. Then I start talking to myself in the same ways. Making negative comments to and about myself that are just plain not true.
I awoke this morning with a little fresher attitude. I guess Satan went somewhere else last night since I was sleeping, besides he had accomplished what he started out to do, make me believe that I am worthless. He hasn't reared his ugly head this morning, however I am sure that he is lurking in the background just waiting for his chance to pounce on me.
After some time with the Lord this morning, I am feeling a bit encouraged however very "gun shy", as we say in Texas. I found in my bible reading that for all the negative things that we have to say to ourselves, God has a positive answer for each one.
Here are just a few that spoke directly to me this morning:

• I say: It's impossible ~ God says: All things are possible. Luke 18:27
• I say: Nobody really loves me ~ God says: I love you. John 3:16
• I say: I can't go on ~ God says: My grace is sufficient. 2 Cor. 12:9
• I say: It's not worth it ~ God says: It will be worth it. Romans 8:28
• I say: I am worried and frustrated ~ God says: Cast all your cares on ME! 1 Peter 5:7
• I say: I am all alone ~ God says: I will never leave you. Hebrews 13:5

So, as I start my day this morning, I am trusting that God will direct me in my steps and when is the right time to open my mouth and when is the right time to keep it shut. I know that my true voice, the one that God gave me, does not speak those negative thoughts. Those are from the enemy and are not a part of me.

I pray that your day will be blessed and may you bless someone along the way.